I woke up feeling tired,
with slightly burning eyes.
I was up late,
because you said to stay.
And I did,
and it was great
though my mind was fading
and I couldn’t hold our conversation.
But here I am in the morning,
and I’ll spend fifteen minutes
tinkering on this silly message…
and did I really just do that?
I want to take it back.
Why does my brain do these
attention-grabbing things
which could do nothing
but leave you befuddled
or scare you away?
I always want to erase it
as soon as I do it.
What was I expecting?
I thought we might have a fun laugh,
I thought you might play along,
but play along with what?
Why does my fear of rejection
always lead me to actions worthy of it?
different faces 